Back to Tears Dry On Their Own - EP

Girl I Used To Be

CIL

[Verse 1]

I'm sick of counting on my ribs

Hollowed cheeks, I'm paper thin

Making sure I'm never full

So, I can stay this beautiful

Traded all my happiness

For nothing but emptiness

[Verse 2]

I'm

body-checking

Body-checking is a term used to describe the fixation of checking of ones body, tracking things such as the appearance/weight/shape and is typically found in those diagnosed with eating disorders.

off the days

Young and yet my body aches

I don't know how much I can take

I can't go on living this way

It's time for her to fly away

[Chorus]

Sing something soft and slow

A song that she used to know

Lay her down in a bed of roses

And make sure that lace dress fits

People suffering from restrictive food intake eating disorders sometimes buy clothes that are too small or own clothes that become big over the span of their disorder.

The lyric ties into the idea of the singer letting her past self lie to rest, “giving” her fitted clothes symbolizes the end of her own personal war with her weight and finally giving her past self peace with wearing something that’s not too small/too big.

Make sure her momma knows

She's taking her pain when she goes

It's only goodbye for a moment

So, go on and close that lid

Say "Goodnight", and just let her sleep

No need to cry for the girl I used to be

[Verse 3]

Make the coffin big enough

To fit the boy she used to love

Who never loved her half as much

And tell her that her work is done

Put the daisies on her chest

And lay that girl to rest